Every year, everyone does the standard new year post about “new year, new me.” And then he or she makes a resolution that lasts about two weeks (until the resolve wears off and life gets in the way, and we fall back into our bad habits). This year, that isn’t for me.
This year isn’t about a new me. It’s about growing into myself. The young woman I already am and who I’m becoming.
2015 was a long year. It was a good year, but it was a hard year. There was a lot of devastation this year, and not just in my personal life. There were natural disasters and man-made disasters. There was a lot of unnecessary loss of life and a lot of fighting over silly stuff.
2016 holds many opportunities for me. I’m going to graduate. I’m going to have to get my life together and be a real grown up. And I’m going to begin the path to fulfilling my potential and leaving my mark on the world.
So, no new me this year. Just me. And the beginning of a new year. And a clean slate.
I know I’m like a week late on the posting, but this month, I’m participating in National Blog Posting Month (NaBloPoMo). I just want to get back into writing and it’s hard to find time that coincides with inspiration. But I’m gonna try. Today’s post is in response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Six of One, Half a Dozen of the Other.” The prompt was to write a six word story about what the future holds and then expand it.
So, basically, for me, the future is a black hole, full of possibilities, which is a thing I’ve said before, and I stand by it. Not knowing what I want to do is definitely a scary thought if I think about it too hard. But, I know that when I graduate in May, I will have the opportunity to do anything I set my mind to. I don’t really know what that’s gonna be yet, but I do know I’m excited by that possibility.
Everyone keeps telling me to enjoy my senior year, and that’s definitely the plan. Apparently, when I graduate, I have to be a grown up or something. So this year I started doing cool things I didn’t even know I wanted to do. Plus, I’ve started working on getting all the appropriate things together so I don’t have to pull my hair out come May.
I got involved with the new UMHB chapter of Student United Way on campus this semester and getting the opportunity to meet the wonderful souls I have is amazing. I’ve made some really wonderful friends through the organization. Plus, since it’s a service based organization, we get to do some really awesome service projects (like Operation Christmas Child), and that’s super fun too.
I took the Myers-Briggs test (admittedly for a class) that told me a bunch of things I already know, like that I’m introverted and that I’m loyal and I have strong core values. So, it’s cool that I now have a term for my particular brand of crazy.
I’m here. I’m doing the living in the moment thing (mostly). I’m going to enjoy it while I’ve got it. And when the future does get here, I’ll be ready. It’s the start of a great story; I can tell.
If we were having coffee this morning, I’d tell you about school. Classes are going well. I’m a little overwhelmed with three PR classes taught by one teacher, but that’s okay. I’m making it work. I’d tell you about how miserable my leadership class is. My group is…interesting, to say the least, but that’s okay. I’m making it work. You’d be proud.
If we were having coffee this morning, I’d tell you I graduate in May and that I wish you could be here to watch me walk. Sometimes it’s like a looming dark hole, but sometimes it’s a bright shining door. I’m really excited. College was good for me and I’ve grown, but I’m ready for the next adventure.
If we were having coffee this morning, I’d tell you about my big plans, where I wanna travel. I’d tell you the stories from travelling in London and Italy, and I’d tell you that I wish you’d been there.
If we were having coffee this morning, when I’d finished my rambling stories, I’d thank you for everything you’ve done for our family. I’d thank you for the legacy you left for us before you got sick.
And you’d tell me how proud you are of all of us.
Today’s assignment was to present an “update” over coffee. I started writing and then I realized who I was writing to. My mom’s dad was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s about seven or eight years ago. The last family trip we took was to Paris in the summer of 2008. I have a lot of good memories with him from long before that, playing in his garden at the home he and my grandma shared in New York until he was moved to a nursing home a few years ago. It’s been increasingly difficult for all of us to go visit him because it’s so sad to see such a strong man become a shell of himself. Some of the most recent memories I have of him are sitting at breakfast making him coffee. Once he had me put something like 11 sugar packets in his cup. That was before I started college and before I started drinking coffee. I treasure the memories I have of him and I know he’d be proud of me and wherever he is mentally, I pray he’s happy.
College is about finding yourself and finding your better half. And I’m not talking about a significant other, because that is not a thing I have found yet. Nor am I looking, for the record. Boys are a lot of work and I’m not real ready for that yet. But I have found my best friend.
She’ll be with you through the hardest finals you take. Then, when you decide to ceremonially burn the 100+ flashcards you painstakingly made to study, she’ll be there for that too.
When you decide you need a mental health day and email into class “sick,” she’ll bring you soup and Disney movies to recuperate your illness.
When you want to hide from all the people, she’ll come find you and hide with you, because she certainly doesn’t want to socialize.
She’ll listen to you study and let you “teach” her things she has no prior knowledge or interest in to make sure you’ve got it for that big test this week.
When you decide you want to single-handedly fund the profit of a movie by seeing it four times, she’ll go with you every time.
When you decide you want to do fun and exciting things on the weekend, she’ll be the first phone call you make. And also when you wanna lay on the couch and watch movies and eat nothing but chocolate and junk food all weekend, she’ll be there for that too.
Speaking of phone calls, that’s a thing you’ll do. All the time. “Hi, I missed you, I haven’t seen you all day, I wanted to check on you. Are you too busy to talk?” And she’s not because she’ll make time to talk to you for at least 20 minutes (or maybe 3 hours. Whatever works.)
She’ll convince you to watch movies you would never have watched under any other circumstances, and then when the stupid sad movie makes you cry, she’ll make you laugh to make up for it.
She will actually make you laugh all the time, because you’ve been friends for more than three years and you have an endless stream of inside jokes that you can now communicate with a look, because you wouldn’t want everyone who can hear you to think you’re crazy.
Speaking of crazy, you both are. But it’s okay because it’s the same kind of crazy. And potentially you make plans to be roommates in the crazy house if either of you ever actually loses it.
She’ll keep track of your life even better than you actually can, because you do the same for her, and between the two of you, you’ll do okay with life.
You’ll make future plans, and she’ll be there. It isn’t even a question.
College is one of the most exciting parts of life, and finding someone to support you and do it with you is one of the best feelings in the world.
I enrolled in Writing 101, a writing workshop through WordPress. We get prompts every weekday for four weeks, so I’m going to try to write on all of those days, but we’ll see how that goes considering I still have to do school and whatnot. Also, that means potentially I’m posting more than once a day. Just fair warning.
…I can always use the practice.
In one of my PR classes (I’m in three and I have the same teacher for all of them, so figuring out which is which is a hard task. So we’ll just leave that information here; do with it what you will), we talked about blogging because we have to do some blogging for her class (probably, I’ll just add some extra posts to this blog, but that’s a whole other story). And one of the questions she asked was what are the benefits of blogging?
And the biggest one that I talked about was the practice I get from maintaining my blog. I get to practice expressing myself in real words (as opposed to the looks and noises I sometimes use with Roseanna). And I get to practice using an online blogging platform (and I must be getting pretty good at it because I’m teaching Rose how to use her blog).
When I write papers for school, sometimes it takes me 200 or more words (and many, many hours of sitting and getting distracted and procrastinating) to actually figure out the point of my paper. And once I get going, I’m good to go and I finish my paper in a snap. However, that is the biggest waste of time because now I have to go back and cut probably well-worded, intelligent sentences out of my paper so that way it all makes sense. And it’s all fine and good that the writing and deleting and writing is part of my process, but that is a tedious process and my hope is that I can potentially refine my process as well as my actual writing skills. And the only way to do that is to practice.
Also, for my field of study (Mass Communication, if anyone didn’t know), we are supposed to write AP style and that’s like relearning the whole world of grammar from like the second grade, so that’ll be fun and exciting. My point here is also that I need to be able to practice that, so we’re back to the practicing.
In addition, like I’ve said before, writing is good for me and sometimes it’s hard for me. I’m hoping that a more regular writing regime will help me manage my stress a little better because getting my thoughts onto paper and out of my head frees up the limited space in there (just kidding; I know it’s not really limited, I can tell you all about that from neurophysiology last semester if you want. The point is, there’s a lot bouncing around in there and it can’t have all my attention all the time).
This week, I came home to watch my brother play in his first home varsity football game. (For anyone who doesn’t know, high school football is a way of life here in Texas, and I was never a part of it when I was in high school, for a variety of reasons, including football not being one of the sports whose rules made sense to me. Now, it’s really cool to watch because I have someone to watch.) Our team won, which is a feat all in itself, but it makes me feel good that he gets to play a game that he loves and that we all get to watch him play. As grumpy as he was when he came off the field and had to take a gazillion pictures with us before he could go get changed and go home, he was happy to win, and that makes me happy.
For potlucks or parties do you cook it yourself, buy from a grocery store, or pay for catering?
Cook. Always cook. Unless I don’t like the people I’m cooking for. In which case I might cook poorly. (Just kidding.) But definitely cook. And sometimes when I cook for other people I try different recipes, that way if I don’t actually like what I made, I can send it home with other people. It’s a win win.
What is your favorite part of the town/city you live in? And in what country do you live?
I live in Belton, Texas, where I go to school. Now, my best friend Roseanna also lives in Belton. (She used to live in Temple, but then she moved to Belton into a house.) And she has my two favorite dog-nieces who live with her. Going to visit them is my favorite part of living in Belton.
Also, I hate being cold, and the winters in Texas are mild, so that’s a close second favorite thing.
Complete this sentence: My favorite place in the whole world…
…is somewhere quiet reading a book.
BONUS question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?
I’m grateful that I made it all the way through this week. It’s only the second week of school and by the end of the week, I felt like I was losing my mind. This weekend, I plan on playing catch up with all of the reading I put off all week, and I am looking forward to next week being less chaotic.
So, I’m sure we all remember when I tried to do the blog-hop things, so we’re gonna try that again a few times a week so I don’t have to come up with all of my own things to write about but you all still get to read about my life and I still get to write. This particular one is called Share Your World. If you want details, go here, but the gist is that the author asks four questions a week and we answer them.
Was school easy or difficult for you? How so?
The actual school part of school was always easy for me. That being said, until I got to the advanced classes (and by “advanced”, I definitely mean the AP classes that have prerequisites and whatnot, not the pre-AP ones that anyone could take), I was mostly bored in my classes. I always liked going to school and learning and I remember when I was younger, I couldn’t wait for the new year to start. Seriously, this was to the point that most nights I couldn’t sleep because I was so excited and I was always up before my alarm went off (which is a great feat, as I have never been a morning person). Now that I’m doing college, the new semester brings more anxiety than it used to, in addition to requiring more work on my part, like ordering textbooks, but I do still love the energy of a new school year.
What is your favorite animal?
I like owls and I’m not really sure why. When I was younger, I went through a phase and I read all about them. I just like the idea of them I guess. Plus, I like to be up late, and they’re nocturnal, so that’s kind of a thing.
If you had to have your vision corrected would you rather: glasses or contacts?
I do have to have my vision corrected, since, like, the fourth grade. And once I started with the vision correcting, I didn’t stop. I was never the kid that “forgot” my glasses so I didn’t have to wear them at school; once I got my glasses, and eventually my contacts, I wore them every day, all day. I’ve been through phases where I religiously wore one or the other. When I first started, I did glasses for a few years, and when I started sixth grade, my parents got me contacts because they thought I was responsible enough for that (joke’s on them, like the third day of school, I rubbed my eye and lost one, so Mom had to bring me a new pair). Since then, I go through phases, but I wear both. Mostly, it depends on how much time I have in the morning and what the weather is doing (like, do I wanna wear sunglasses or be able to see in the rain?) or how long I’ve been wearing them.
List: Name at least five television shows (past or present) you enjoyed?
Boy Meets World
Young & Hungry
If we could not judge my choice in TV shows, that’d be great. I enjoy finding new things to watch on Netflix and sometimes I rewatch old things. Also, I can quote most of these TV shows in everyday life.
BONUS question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?
I am grateful that Roseanna is such a wonderful friend. On Sunday night, when I left Roseanna in my apartment with coffee (because she was without a coffee pot for a few days) she went around and left me notes all over my apartment wishing my luck for the next day.
This week, I am looking forward to watching my little brother, a high school sophomore, start his first game on the varsity football team.